Diary of the Usual Sadness, 2020-21
Diary of the Usual Sadness is a series of vanitas still lifes created during the pandemic between 2020-21. The title of this series is borrowed from a book of prose written by Palestinian poet Mahmoud Darwish, first published in Beirut in 1973. These probing essays ask pressing questions about the complex realities the Palestinians face under occupation and the ambiguity of Darwish’s own identity.
The solitude of a studio practice is a place for wandering thoughts. It is too painful to think about the histories of Palestine, yet they always occupy my mind. The thoughts that perplex me on a daily basis seem too intricate and tiresome for visual translation. For this reason, I would rather create paintings of flowers. Admiring and attempting to capture their delicate beauty softens the internalized pain and survivors guilt. The glimpses of excitement I get when the right colour combinations come together are a welcomed pause from the usual sadness.
This series was exhibited at Smoke The Moon in Santa Fe, NM from July 16 - Aug 8, 2021.Please email smokethemoon77@gmail.com for a checklist of available work.
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Acrylic on Panel
9 x 12 inches
2020
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Acrylic on Panel
8 x 10 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
8 x 10 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
9 x 12 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
9 x 12 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
9 x 12 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
9 x 12 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
9 x 12 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
9 x 12 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
16 x 20 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
16 x 20 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
18 x 24 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
18 x 24 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
18 x 24 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
24 x 32 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
16 x 20 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
18 x 24 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
18 x 24 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
12 x 16 inches
2021
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Acrylic on Panel
12 x 16 inches
2021
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Bouquet #21
Acrylic on Panel
8 x 10 inches
2021
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Bouquet #22
Acrylic on Panel
8 x 10 inches
2021